i have an obsession with super foods. you know, berries, kale, flax…anything with anti-oxidants, omega-3s, fiber, etc…in my mind, eating super foods is like getting extra credit. and you know me. i’d rather get an A+ than an A. recently, i picked up chia seeds at trader joe’s. and whoa nelly is that stuff magical. i’ve been blending it into my smoothies in the morning (with blueberry, greek yogurt, flax seed, and acai) and i am full all the way to lunch. that NEVER happens. except with chia seeds. i suspect i’ll start growing chia pets in my stomach soon.
the meal planning is going really well…except that i think i over bought. i bought a ton of produce and i’m not going through it nearly as fast as i thought i was. mainly because i am not snacking except for an apple in the afternoon. whereas before, i was snacking all the friggin’ time. so i thought i would need to be gnawing on plants all day. and i’m not. i’m pleasantly surprised.
i’ve also gotten my walking miles in. today, though, i have an errand to run at the DMV at lunch. so i think i might try to do some yoga tonight. i feel really wussy to say i think my legs need a break.
yesterday, an old co-worker came in to visit at the office and i was blown away. i had seen her about a month ago and knew she had lost weight. but yesterday she was even smaller. like shockingly smaller. and i thought fuuuuuck! i gotta get my shit together. this woman is old enough to be my mom and she must have lost at least 60 pounds in the last 8 months or so. she used to take the elevator one floor because walking up them hurt her knees. and now she’s smaller than me! talk about motivation!
despite the sadness of my last post, there are lotsa happy things going on around here:
- i got my teeth cleaned! i’m the nerd who loves the dentist because they always tell me how beautiful my teeth are. and i get away with minimal wrist slapping despite my infrequency with flossing. you know you’re getting old when walking out of the dentist’s office with clean, sparkly teeth gives you a bigger rush than buying a pair of new shoes.
- my closet and dresser have been cleaned out of the crap and reorganized. this task has been weighing on my mind for a while now. i’ve been inspired by a few new style blogs i’ve found recently to rework and reimagine what i already own. and now that i’ve taken better inventory of what i’ve got, it’s much easier to get dressed in the mornings!
- i’m all caught up on my project life photo album. i was a week behind, but i was finally able to find some time to get down and dirty with my photos and schtuff.
- in that same vein, i made my 30 days of lists inserts – out of materials i had been holding onto for 10 years. TEN YEARS. i can be such a paper pack rat.
- i also got some divine inspiration for a couple of photobooks i’ve been wanting to put together for myself and others as gifts. i’m still collecting a few materials but i’m DYING to start work on them now.
- but i have other projects in the way first. not necessarily ones i want to work on, but ones that need to get done nonetheless. in the grand scheme of things, my efforts now could prove fruitful in the future
- my husband and mom and i recently attended a harvest festival in town, where we enjoyed free tastings are local wineries, farms, and olive oil makers. we bought a delicious dessert wine, nuts and dried fruit, local honey, some awesome olive oil and a roasted blood orange balsamic vinegar. it was recommended we try it on ice cream. and whoa nelly was that shit good! seriously. the first night, i tried it with some (also local) french vanilla ice cream and blueberries. and tonight with some dried coconut. hot damn! it’s better than chocolate.
- also at the harvest festival, my mom and i got to compete in a grape stomping contest. it’s harder than it looks man. not to mention temps were in the 90s! by the end, we were covered head to toe in smashed grapes. i had grapes in my hair! it was a riot and my mom was super happy because it’s something she’s been wanting to cross off her bucket list.
- plans are underway for a girl’s weekend in vegas in the fall. i cannot overstate how much i need this!
you know it’s going to be a bad day when you wish you were called in for jury duty.
turns out i am on call and find out tonight if i have to serve on tuesday. so off to the office i went, like a good worker bee. and wouldn’t ya know it, my gas tank was low. enough to get me to work but not enough to get be back. and since gas is more expensive where i work, i wisely made the decision to stop in town, despite being late already.
thank god i did, because low and behold, i didn’t have my wallet! flashbacks to the weekend reminded me that i had left it in my husband’s car and he was long gone 80 miles from where i was.
so i drive back home and ask to borrow money from my mom. <sigh> i take her 25 bucks, use 15 of it to get 5 gallons and make my way to work. i stop at mcdonalds like a fat kid to get some breakfast and quell my inner beast.
i get to the office and notice the power’s out. but not all of it. half of the lights are on and in the office across the hall, they’re at about 50% too. i open the door to our office and no lights. no air. nothing is working in the kitchen. but the blue and green lights of the server and modem are brightly shining. so we have no lights but we do have computers! so i guess i have to work after all.
i really, really, really should have stayed home today.
’cause now i only have a little over $3 to my name and all of the food i had in the fridge at work spoiled over the weekend with no electricity. i shouldn’t whine because Lord knows i can afford to go without for 1 meal for 1 day. i’m such a spoiled fat cat.
my wallet will remain with the hubs for the week unless i want to drive myself down there to get it. and i had big plans for getting mom flowers for her birthday tomorrow. perhaps this is a lesson in austerity.
since the 3rd of july was a mini-friday, we took the opportunity to have a date night. lately, with our current living situation it’s been hard to have these, which made last night all the more sweeter.
we found ourselves at Mankas Corner, a local tapas steakhouse that recently opened up. i was very tempted to have the bone marrow, since i’d never had it. but it was a bit pricey and i figured the portion would be tiny. so i’ll have it next time. i’m too curious about it not to have it. plus they say it is an aphrodisiac. dinner was good, nothing blow your socks off (especially for the price) but the ambiance was nice which made for some good conversation. we had a really good heart-to-heart talk and in a lot of ways i feel like the weight and stresses of the past couple months had melted away. after dinner, we took the long way home through the valley, since patrick wanted to look for jack rabbits in the fields. it felt good to feel like we re on the same page and in the same rhythm again. it’s hard to do that when you spend the week apart.
as for my summer manifesto, i tried rhubarb for the first time, in the form of a rhubarb strawberry crumble. i knew it was going to be tart, but i was promised that it would be balanced by the sweetness of the strawberry. i was not a fan. it would have been better if that dollop of cream was ice cream. i’m always kind of disappointed when i try a new food and don’t like it because i love all food. but i guess not.
at least it was pretty:
i feel very lucky to live a mere 5 minutes away from the suisun valley, where wine, olives, and produce grow in abundance. earlier this year i considered joining a csa, but when i looked up where it was i realized i could ride my bike there if i really wanted to.
among the many produce stands in the valley is 99 cherry orchard. yes, you can pick your own cherries. yes, they have rustic, rusted sculptures out front. yes, they sell local honey. but what you notice most is the “homemade ice cream & pies” sign!
in the fall, they serve pumpkin ice cream. but this time around i tried their kumquat flavor, since trying a new ice cream flavor is on my summer manifesto. it was hard to know exactly what it would taste like since i’ve never had a kumquat (even though we have a tree in the backyard), but i prepared myself for something citrusy? and honestly, even after trying it i can’t exactly say what it tasted like. don’t get me wrong it was good. since it was also topped with a hot, fresh waffle. but i don’t think i found the holy grail of ice cream, which is still reserved for gifford’s peppermint ice cream.
being a perfectionist totally sucks because you can never be happy. i look back at march and see all the workouts i missed, the same 7 pounds i keep losing and finding, the chores i have yet to cross of my list. but then i remember:
- i do have a semi-regular habit of going to the gym now. i am loving U-Jam and found out there is another class offered at a time convenient to me! and i’m picking up running again. it’s slow to be sure, but still it feels good.
- i’m eating a ton more fruit and vegetables than i was before. my mainly vegetarian routine during the workweek coupled with my new fascination with juicing have totally amped up the fresh produce consumption. so while the weight loss is super slow, i do know i am doing great things for my body.
- buying 2 new ipads put a damper on our savings this month, but it has allowed us to Facetime with the inlaws, which my husband and his parents thoroughly enjoy. so the money was definitely worth it. and it feels wonderful to be able to treat my husband’s parents to a nice gift after all they’ve done for us.
- we really have saved a good deal this year. for the most part, we can bank half of our salary. that’s pretty huge if you ask me.
so honestly, not a total loss in any department.
there’s not much in april that seems to excite me. we’ve got 2 big trips in may so i think i just want the days in april to hurry up already. but that’s no way to live life, so i’d like to think of some goals to help april feel more meanintful…
i just turned down 2 kinds of cake. seriously, the hell i got about it was pretty bad.
screw you people. i need to drop this weight already. you can have your cake and eat it too. i need to finish the third juice of the day.
i know i’m going to sound like i’m in a cult or something, but this juice thing is awesome! i feel fantastic. and today i haven’t had the same hunger pangs like i have the last two days. i made it safely to noon without wanting to gnaw my arm off and i only had 2 juices. for lunch i wanted to walk, but i also decided i wanted tuna sashimi. so i did both. i know tuna is not a vegetable, but my leg muscles feel sore so i thought i’d give them some protein. plus honestly, 7 pieces of ahi tuna is in no way unhealthy. okay so maybe the miso soup i had was unnecessary and i ate the complementary edamame that they put in my bag. but in the grand scheme of things, better than taco bell and i swear i really feel like i needed protein.
the rest of the day went pretty well except that when i got home i parked myself in front of the tv. which i’m not supposed to be doing. but my intention was to watch the last night’s recorded modern family. except it was a rerun. but i was already comfy on the couch and the tv was already on HGTV…so there i sat for about 2 hours vegging.
which isn’t horrible, but do you know how many food related commercials come on in 2 hours? too many. plus my mom was making dinner and she dipped into our new box of veggie chips. grrr. i ate 2 bags. shortly after i realized i needed to park myself away from the boob tube.
not too much damage was done though, as i’m a down another 1.4 pounds. that’s a total of 6.8 pounds in 3 days for those counting at home. i could maybe break 10 pounds by monday morning? talk about motivation for being good this weekend, which is a notoriously hard time for me to eat healthy.
i didn’t work out this morning, since my achilles heels needed some rest. i may attempt another ujam class tonight depending on when the hubby gets off of work and how i feel. but so far my energy and mood have been pretty high.
apparently, 2.4 is the magic number because that’s the poundage i’m down from yesterday. 2.4 is now my favorite number. it’s crazy ’cause i’m already 10% to my goal. now i know i won’t drop 2.4 pounds every day, but it’s a great boost. when i feel like breaking fast, i’ll repeat to myself “2.4″ though to be honest, i’ve eaten something in the last 2 days i’ve been on the ‘fast’. the first day i finished the english muffin i had in the fridge at work and a salad that i needed to eat before it went bad. and yesterday, i didn’t get all my juices in before taking my mom to costco, so while she ate a polish hot dog and a churro, i had a chicken casesar, sans chicken, and minimal caesar. and let me say it felt really good to chew food. and have something savory. i don’t think salads will eff me up in the long run. in fact they may help me keep my sanity. did i just say salads will help keep me sane? oy vey.
this morning when i got up around 4, i hemmed and hawed about whether to go to the gym. then i decided eff it, i feel good now so go. going in the morning will make you feel better all day. so i went. i tried to stick to a walk 5, run 1 ratio, but then really good songs would come up on my pandora: push it, my prerogative, pour some sugar on me…can you tell i am a teen of the 90s? anyway, it’s impossible not to have more pep in your step when those tunes come on. and in those brief moments where i was running and singing to myself i remembered that feeling. that awesome-kick-ass-i-am-running-god-damnit feeling. it. was. awesome. i finished 2 miles in about 35 minutes and left with a glow (or was that sweat?) did i mention i felt awesome.
so now i’m sipping on a blueberry lemonade concoction. since my mom and i went shopping last night i had to clear out the random odds and ends of frozen fruit i had in the freezer to make way for the new stuff- cherries, blackberries, blueberries, mango. i had some frozen spinach and kale to use up too. so it all went in either the blender of the juicer. i have to say pulverizing food is very cathartic. i don’t know what it says about me that i like the sound of that motor whirring and that blade chopping that ish up to bits. i also love that i can put the whole lemon in the juicer. the tart juice i have today should be a nice complement to the leftover juice i have from yesterday. maybe then i won’t get so bored drinking juice.
it seems silly to keep track of my progress hourly, but i do have to mentally check in with myself throughout the day. the hardest part of the day is around 11:00 when i’m nearing lunch. i had another juice then and just gulped it down, instead of sipping it lady like. and that helped me feel full enough.
i went for a walk and now i’m sipping hot tea which always makes me feel warm and cozy. i’ll have another juice when i’m done with that and i’ll probably have one while i drive home. i have to make sure i’m good and full before i take my mom to costco tonight.
at least i can say i got in 30 minutes this morning and 2 miles at lunch.